At the beginning of March we headed out to the Wolfkop Camping Villages just outside Citrusdal for the weekend to join the very first Wolfkop Family Festival that is now going to be an annual event. Before that weekend I'd never heard of Wolfkop before despite us camping out that side as often as possible as we tend to stick with what we know and only go to The Baths. Well I am really glad we were invited and got to experience the festival. We really had such a great...

In november I found out someone who had a phenomenal impact on me while I was pregnant and during the first few years of Fysh's life had passed away. It'd been a while since I'd seen her, we kept making plans but something would come up. I can't even begin to explain this woman. Have you ever met someone and you just instantly feel accepted? That was D. I wasn't just the tutor. She made me feel like I was part of the family, I was invited to special...

I have several diagnoses, the main one being borderline personality disorder but along with that are the sub-diagnoses that are a little more "common" but still encased in crappy stigma. A while back I made up a list of things that people with anxiety want you to know. Today I thought I'd talk about the depression diagnosis and a few things that someone with it might want you to know. This isn't a comprehensive list though so if you feel you would like to add to it please message...

  These are words you won't find in the Oxford dictionary, you will however find them on The dictionary of obscure sorrows. They were mostly made up by graphic designer John Koenig who's original definitions aim to fill a hole in the language - to give a name to emotions we all might experience but don’t yet have a word for. Each word actually means something etymologically, having been built from one of a dozen languages or renovated jargon. I thought I'd list some of my favorites and the ones I feel/experience most...

The years seem to be getting shorter as I get older, I don't know if it's because I'm just so busy trying to stay above water with all the bills and work and schooling or if it's because, well am not really sure but it's going by faster. Despite it galloping past though a lot happened, so much so that I barely really remember most of it and have to use Instagram to look back on everything. Thank goodness for photo memories! I think the most noteworthy part of 2017...

There's a saying how life is so short and I remember hearing it so often when I was younger. "Enjoy your youth, it goes by so fast" but I always thought that it was such a load of crock because life is the longest damn experience you'll ever have. Now though,  it seems that the closer I get to 30 the quicker time passes by, or maybe it's just that I'm noticing it now. Blink and it's gone. You've missed the moment.  They're walking and talking and that little boy...

Remember when I won a spot to join one of Janine Binneman's jewelry workshops? We had such a fantastic time and even Fysh loved it, mainly because Janine gave him a piece of wax to faff with and keep busy while I was learning all the things (or trying to anyway). Well I got a message saying "your rings are ready" and I was a little confused because I was only getting one, Janine being the magical mermaid she is went over and above and she had turned the...

It's a late night post, or early morning depending on how you want to look at it but my old friend insomnia seems to have returned. You don't have to read this one. If you give it a skip I won't judge you as it's just a random ramble and I'm sort of hoping that if I get a few words out of my head it will help ease the worry a bit and make space for more creativity and oomph. On Wednesday I finally sucked up my pride...

Oh fuck I have heard this said to me so often that if I had a R10 note for every time I heard it I'd own that farm in a small forest town already. But hey, they are sort of right. IT IS IN MY HEAD, THAT'S THE PROBLEM! My brain, it has issues. I've heard how finding Jesus will cure me. How just changing my diet will fix everything. How I need to be more positive because that will fix it all and man I've heard too often...

she was not fragile like a flower; she was fragile like a bomb.   I feel like this quote pretty much sums up my life. Particularly at the moment, I've been holding on and I'm so scared I just explode into pink mist and evaporate to nothingness. Yesterday was a shitty day, perhaps it was too much sun (me and the sun, we are not friends) or it was the overload of socializing. Either way I didn't want to do anything, I spent most of the day cuddling with Fysh and...

The Person is the most damn patient and quietly persistent person I have ever met. He's done so many things to help out and for a long time I resisted because "my life is fine stop trying to change it" but here and there I started giving in. And it's funny how things happen like that, you start changing one small thing here and there and the ripple effect is tremendous. I started forcing myself to disconnect and go to bed earlier than usual, whether or not I had...

Who is a daughter of the forest? She is the girl who goes hiking in a dress, not because she is impractical, but because she is perfectly at home among the wild shadows. The forest daughter is that grown woman who comes home with pine cones in her purse. She’s probably got a stash of creek rocks somewhere, or a few favorite leaves drying on her porch. She goes on vacation and brings home a birch bark curl, a grey fuzzle of arctic moss, a delicate fern or wildflower pressed between the...

I like to think that I can be spontaneous and don't need a rigid schedule but I'm just lying to myself. While I don't write it all down and list it hour by hour like some people I do plan out my day and week in my head and if anyone messes with my planning I get agitated and sometimes rather snappy and mean. I've been thinking I need to keep a schedule and then send those around me a link to it so they can schedule themselves in...

Have you ever had a day where you're trying REALLY hard to have a great day but life feels the need to test how real that determination is?  I had the penguin random house children's books showcase this afternoon and I was so amped because books and people who like books!  But...

It feels like yesterday and also eons ago that I was that crazy loud teen that partied hard every weekend after work. Not that you'd say it though. I was badly bullied in my earlier school and even highschool years so when I had a new start at a new school I was like the boogeymans daughter in monster high. I blended as best I could. I had a job and everything.  But as soon as I went out I'd put on this other personality almost, the "normal party...

I haven't really been writing here much lately as you can tell despite having several things to review and books to talk about. It's been easier for me to Instagram my thoughts and I feel a bit more validated there like people are actually seeing it. Dumb I know. Another reason I haven't been writing much is because I've been so busy I simply don't get around to it. I started my 365 project with the hopes of it helping me mentally as last year was so rough I needed...

'Sup bitch. When I was in school I decided no kids for me and yet at 20 you were carrying a little bean that would turn into the smart mouthed brilliant soul that is my minion.  However, you didn't very much like this bean and changed your mind at around 7 months and told him to vacate whether he was ready or not. And in doing this you nearly killed the both of us. But we're still here! I had talked to our surgeon afterwards and asked if she would fix you up, make...

Often my brain frustrates me so much. Have you even had that moment when something feels really familiar and then it triggers an old memory that you can't fully grasp but it nags and nags and nags and you just have to figure it out? The narration of the new Netflix lemony snickets series did that for me today and I ended up spending an hour trying to figure out what the fuck that nagging was...

My post on why I homeschool seems to have weeded a few people out of my timeline. I've been called childish and selfish for choosing to homeschool, that I had clearly not done any research because I don't argue well and that Fysh will end up hating me for ruining his life. I was not homeschooled. I attended normal government schools and did a two year stint in a private all girls school. I was subject to all the standardised tests and bullied by teachers and peers alike for my awkwardness...

So in 2017 I'll be attempting my very first 365 project and to help make it happen I was going to do a crowd funding thing but then thought perhaps Patreon was a better idea because long term I'd also like to exhibit the pieces from the project and also finish the book that is currently penned on napkins! What is Patreon : Basically Patrons help artists be appreciated and actually allow them to be the artist they are. I stuck at really explaining though so here's a video...