Fysh says to me he's hungry and wants something. But not the somethings I made for lunch (a really nice pasta and tomato thing) or the somethings in the fridge (apples)  just something. So I missioned to the kitchen and stood there hoping something magical will jump out at...

At the beginning of March we headed out to the Wolfkop Camping Villages just outside Citrusdal for the weekend to join the very first Wolfkop Family Festival that is now going to be an annual event. Before that weekend I'd never heard of Wolfkop before despite us camping out that side as often as possible as we tend to stick with what we know and only go to The Baths. Well I am really glad we were invited and got to experience the festival. We really had such a great...

We're still here, still up and at em. Well okay not so much up and at em, I've basically been sick for the past 3 weeks. First is was just a cold, meh but nothing I can't manage, said cold morphed into full blown seasonal flu hell with coughing so bad that sleep was hard to come by and I basically had to sit up straight if I wanted a wink or two. Everything that came with it, migraines, no taste or smell...

For a long time I dreaded nearing my third decade. It's such a big number. Feels so much like a "you should have your shit together" kind of number which is silly I know but it's just what it is. I had major anxiety about it, panic attacks and oh the many many guilt ridden depressive episodes. And yet the strangest thing has happened this year, I'm turning 30 and I'm not worried about it. It's as if a coin flipped over and I wouldn't say I'm a whole...

M's friends are having baby #2 and we were invited to the baby shower on Sunday. We were asked to bring a 20 x 20 crochet or knit square which might sound like a rather random request but turns out all the squares will be stitched together to make a comfort blanket for the new little :) How sweet is that?! So I took 3 squares, one from each of us, and managed the socializing by sitting making a 4th while there. The older kids tend to feel a little neglected...

It's been a whirlwind here settling back down after my dad sailed off, taking on a large side project, finishing my book (we even got the printing quotes!) so pre-sales can go live, speaking to lawyers and just keeping us all alive in general so writing hasn't been on the forefront and every time I sit to write something else comes up, washing needs doing or dinner needs cooking. This weekend we missioned through to Stellies for the first time in a while and it was a much needed...

In november I found out someone who had a phenomenal impact on me while I was pregnant and during the first few years of Fysh's life had passed away. It'd been a while since I'd seen her, we kept making plans but something would come up. I can't even begin to explain this woman. Have you ever met someone and you just instantly feel accepted? That was D. I wasn't just the tutor. She made me feel like I was part of the family, I was invited to special...

Yesterday we headed up to Simons Town to drop my pops off as their finally headed out and making their way up to their final destination - Mozambique. Fysh and I sat around on Adrenalyn while the boys did fuel runs, stocked up on groceries etc. Fysh is so comfortable on a yacht, there is no fear in that kid at all, he reminds me of myself when I was running around on yachts, for some reason despite having my yacht masters I just ain't as comfortable on them...

I have several diagnoses, the main one being borderline personality disorder but along with that are the sub-diagnoses that are a little more "common" but still encased in crappy stigma. A while back I made up a list of things that people with anxiety want you to know. Today I thought I'd talk about the depression diagnosis and a few things that someone with it might want you to know. This isn't a comprehensive list though so if you feel you would like to add to it please message...

Today I got to shoot a snipers rifle, a freaking 50 calibre sniper rifle, at Lourensford Wine Estate. I didn't even realize this was something that needed to be on my bucket list but I am so glad it was something I got to do. I wasn't going to, shoot the big gun that is, as the instructor was more of a "it has a hectic recoil, it's not really a ladies gun" kinda thing and I told him not to be sexist, also I mean really, don't...